“I started producing when I was 14. I’ve been at this for 20 years.” Kanye West
“If you have a dream, go after it don’t stop. You better chase that motherfucker down.” Jay Z
On Saturday, I went to the JayZ/Kanye West Watch the Throne tour at the New Orleans Arena. What an amazing show. I won’t go into the specifics because I don’t want to give any spoilers for others’ experience but I will simply say it was stellar. The part that resonated with me the most was that the duo constantly encouraged the crowd to go after what it is they truly desire in life. They both shared stories and songs that really pushed that point home…
On yesterday I was in full recovery mode, so much so that I missed a cookout for my Granny’s bday this week as well as a dear friend’s birthday paint party but I digress. I did a lot of reflecting, journaling, visioning and questioning, “Am I really following my dream? Am I really going all in? What is in the way? Why am I not accomplishing the success? Am I on the right track?” etc etc etc. This was a REAL convo – shed some tears and felt some pain. At the end of the day, I wrote down a list of questions then I went to sleep.
I had a dream…in the dream I saw how far I’d come from, the things I’d accomplished and goals that have fallen short. The constant was that I’ve done it all on my own (now that doesn’t mean I haven’t had help because I have but I’ve done the work on my own if that makes sense.). Also toward the end of the dream, I saw one of my strongest supporters standing at my back door (an area I spend a lot of time at/in). I was trying to make him come with me to wherever I was going and he said, you’ve got to go get it on your own. I turned and walked away. When I got to what is the front of my house in real life, it was the office of my dreams complete with completed project images all over…
My most recent issues have been because I just don’t see how I can do everything I need to get done on my own. I feel like I need some support, like a partner in all aspects of my life. This partner has not yet appeared and that saddens and confuses me. But the dream reminded me that the help I seek won’t come from some “partner”. I can do this…even though it seems so impossible to me. Further other parts of the dream led me to believe that this “partner” won’t appear until I do the work alone. It still seems pretty freaking impossible but I’m going to go for it.
This is the faith part. The trust part. The believe part. All the lessons I’ve been prepping for…last night it was all a dream…I can not wait until it is all a reality.
Enjoy today’s Motivational Monday Music: Jay Z It Was All A Dream
So if you’ve ever read my blog or had over a 10 minute conversation with me you know that KANYE WEST is one of my favorite all time artist. His music inspires me to follow my dreams even though I may be afraid or insecure. His lyrics remind me to never forget how good I am at my craft and I use so many of his quotes as affirmations. As a producer, his beats make my soul smile and my heart dance. Today is his birthday…in honor here’s my fav video. This was super hard to pick just one so I went with the first song of his I’ve ever heard!!!
I’M A CHAMPION TURN TRAGEDY INTO TRIUMPH!!!!!!!!
As I listen to this interview, I’m so pushed to simply create…
Today is one of those days where I was feeling down and needed to really get my spirits up. I was feeling blah, had a serious of random unfortunate events to start my day. I had to pop in Kanye and the POWER Remix got my mind back right. Jay Z is featured on the track and his line stuck out to me…
Rumble, young man, rumble Life is a trip, so sometimes, we gon’ stumble You gotta go through pain in order to become you
Give it a listen and see if it speaks to you…
Mr. West.
Mr. West.
Mr. West.
So today on Twitter Kanye went on a “rant”…not surprising since many people relate to him only based on his rants. But this was different. It was a stream of consciousness via tweets. He put it all out there (as usual lol) but I guess now a days I like what he has to share more. He’s revealing his journey and I’m think that’s pretty freakin cool. But…we all know I’m a fan so I’ll switch Kanye topics. He leaked a song from his new album. I so anticipate this next cd.
Lately, I have had quite a few conversations with friends regarding the Illuminati. A little known fact about me is that I love … LOVE conspiracy theories. I still don’t think Neil Armstrong walked on the moon (well that the televised version was real) and I do believe the US government shot Kennedy and knew a lot more about 9-11 than we as citizens will ever know. So naturally I’m interested in conversations about the Illuminati, and as I said, lately I’ve been having quite a few conversations about the said organization whose mission is to rule the world (insert evil laugh).
First off, it is hard for me to understand why folk are so up in arms about what may be subliminally placed into music when there is so much that is blatantly said that we don’t take issue to. (I won’t even go into the degradation of women, promotion of violence and materialism – that would be a whole ‘nother post.) And second-off, all these folk that keep telling me about this evil plot still listen to the artists they say are straight Illuminati! It just concerns me when people start to place labels on others they do not know especially something as serious as “Devil Worshipper”. What if one day someone sees you do or say something they feel is of the occult and label you? In a world where our identity is determined first by our internet image, it would seem to me that we would be slow to “expose” anyone as the day may soon come where we may be exposed. It has happened all through history but the name was different – Christ wasn’t part of the Illuminati, but a whole bunch of folk wanted him murdered because they could not believe he was a man of God! And Hitler made a whole bunch of folk think it was okay to kill people of Jewish descent because they were impure. I’m in no way comparing today’s hip-hop artists accused of being Illuminati to Christ or their issues of defending themselves to those who died in the Holocaust, but I am making the point that we should be careful of judging who a man that we do not know really is. I guess I’ll stop here before someone thinks I am Illuminati!
But when I finally got the power, what the f*ck did i do? I’m so sorry to y’all, everyone one of y’all that had to fight for my name/ Everyone of y’all a year ago that I made feel ashamed/ Everyone that said “Kanye is that n*gga quick [inaudible] my name, And all ya’ll…I am the one to blame / and the people that I let down, I wanna tell you, right here, right now that I’m a new man and understand my position of power.
Yall know I’m such a Kanye fan since the College Dropout. I’ve always appreciated him because I always felt like he was outwardly displaying the crap most of us have going on deep below the surface. I like how he’s sharing even more of himself as he promotes his new project. Check it:
So if you know me you know I LOVE Kanye West. I feel he says/does the things I would do if I had balls. He literally is calling folk like me out…while I’m not your favorite underground rap or music artist, I am someone who is not expressing myself creatively which is a waste of my gifts. I’m no longer willing to do that. I’m ready to live full out regardless of how it is received. Check out Kanye’s speech to Rolling Stone writers re:his new album. Turn it up around the 1:08 mark.
