…I was walking in a hallway of what appeared to be my home, but not where I live now. It had a ton of windows and I felt like I was in L.A. or maybe Miami. I was holding my stomach smiling when the phone rung (not iPhone, but a house cordless phone). I answered and like in the movies, I could see who I was talking to – it was Diddy (yep that Diddy). He said hey. I said hey and bit my lip. He said you have to take it easy or it won’t work. I said its all good the doctor said we’ll be great. He said take care of my baby. I said that’s why you picked me because you knew I would. He said that’s my girl. Before I hung up, a man walked up behind me. I knew who he was (in the dream) but I can’t recall what he looks like. I told Diddy buh-bye and hung up. I hugged the dude and then woke up…
So I’ve been doing a lot of dream work. I have been reading about how your subconscious mind can communicate messages to you when you’re asleep. I felt like this was one of those communications. Do I think it mean me and Diddy gonna have a baby ummm no.
Background: I have always loved Diddy but not in a I wanna marry him type of way but in a I wanna be him way. I admire his work ethic – he became a MOGUL and was literally a dude who threw college parties, hot parties but parties nonetheless. Moreover, I admire how his work ethic never stopped his social ethic! Diddy get’s it in! I always felt like that if Sean Combs could become Diddy I could become DaVida Chanel, a mogul in my own rite. The difference is, I don’t know what my “thing” is yet. As Jay-Z said, no one could touch Diddy when he had it-he was the hottest producer/manager/label guy out there. He went against the grain and did him NO MATTER WHAT! To me, Diddy represents the American Dream. He came from meager beginnings but through hard work and sheer ambition he became the man we know today.
So if I dreamed that a part of him was literally inside of me, maybe my subconscious is telling me that it is! If I dug deeper with the analysis, if the dream were real and I got “pregnant” with some Diddy-ness, then I’d be due around March…which I’ve been told happens to be a very good time for me (if you’re into astrology, that’s when my Part of Fortune will be at its peak…and since I’m Scorpio rising its gotta mean something that Diddy is a Scorpio…). I take this dream (and all my dreams) as a message. So instead of shrugging it off, I’m hard at work-deciding what the “thing” that will make me a mogul will be.
Stay tuned for the arrival of another part of me…
In astrology right now, the phenom of Mercury Retrograde is occurring. Its a time to reflect, review, adjust as needed and move on. This time its affecting me in the area of relationships. Who knows what rocks these guys crawled from under but I’m more interested in the lessons I’m supposed to learn from the past as it relates to them. It brings up lots of personal work but I’m ready to confront my unresolved issues and move on. That’s exactly what Mercury does during retrograde … it literally backs up in the sky for a while makes adjustments, then continues forward. Full steam ahead …
It is funny how things work out and happen. I got a text from my friend late last night that the new moon was in Scorpio. This is what that astrological occurrence has in store for me (Click here to see what it means for you.) Interesting huh?
New Moon in the 1st House
A new moon in the 1st house bestows a renewal within the self. Reinvent yourself. Try new things. Be bolder, more confident. Start new projects. Begin walking, talking, thinking, acting, and being the version of yourself you envision. Go on, try it out; see how it feels.
WOW! Such a huge insight. Of course I want to be recognized – let’s review: My huge part of me wants to become a reality TV star. I come alive in front of cameras. I’ve had a personal website since the days of geocities. Now that I have a blog, its entire focus is to share stories about my life and my pursuit to become the person I desire to be! The fact that I have a blog (and Twitter and Facebook accounts) all point to my desire to share my life with people. This desire has been longstanding – I’ve always enjoyed doing things in such a way that others would be able to see and recognize. I’m moved by living aloud – I don’t consider my “accomplishments” to be so great if they aren’t big enough to make people take notice. I do well in jobs where my contributions clearly make a difference (that’s why being a good Hollywood assistant was right up my alley-if you assist your boss well, everyone they work with will know! And just to take it a step further, this desire to be recognized is even visible in my astrological chart – my chart is ruled by the sign Leo (all about recognition). Want one more illustration? If you take a look at some of my idols, they are a group that has no problem being seen (Presidnt Obama, Victoria Beckham, Kanye West, Kobe Bryant, to name a few).
Every year, Mercury goes into retrograde 3 times. This year has been full of astrological occurrences a little out of the norm. Today marks the beginning if the fourth Mercury retrograde this year. This time it occurs in the sign of Libra, starting today through Sept. 29.
By way if explanation, if you recall, I am a relatively new astrological student. I find a deeper study of the science provides interesting and compelling insight into the study of oneself. My first boss in L.A. introduced me to this phenomenon on Mercury Retrograde. See Mercury is the ruler of communication. When it orbits into retrograde, strange things occur as it relates to communicating. Cell phones break, contracts are unclear and general “weirdness” occurs. At the time when I became an assistant to my boss, I had no idea what this thing was. All I knew is we shut down all communication during that period that would have a lasting effect (ie, no signing contracts, no signing new clients or no large purchases).
As my astrological studies increased I learned more about Retrogrades. Now I know it is not just about crazy things happening with communication. Retrograde periods re-present opportunities that may have been elusive in the past. Additionally, the effects are linked to what sign Mercury is retrograding. This one is in Libra, so good ole’ relationship (business and personal) issues that weren’t previously resolved may reappear. All in all move forward with caution to limit negative implications of this retrograde. Move more into the energy flow instead of fighting it and before you know it, Mercury will be back on track!
Tonight is a pretty big astrological event. It is a lunar eclipse! It should look like this picture here but that’s not set in stone. In astrology news it is a pretty big deal because it is the third eclipse this season (there are usually just two; the last eclipse happened to be on my birthday). There is a lot to said about what can/will occur on eclipse days. One thing is for sure, today and tomorrow might be emotional, so buckle up and enjoy the ride! (For more information on the eclipse click here.)
